Stories

Hi everyone,

You can post your stories as comments in this section. I'm looking forward to reading them.

Here's my story:

I am a 21 year old female and I have had hirsutism for as long as I can remember. I'm going to copy-paste parts of a letter that I wrote to a homeopath just recently. I will start seeing her soon. Hopefully it will be something fruitful (fingers crossed)

"I have had blood tests that show normal hormonal levels, and will get myself checked for PCOS soon. My periods are also regular. My hair growth is definately excessive, occuring very visibly all over my body. According to my understanding it is mostly terminal hair, with vellus hairs occuring on my back, chest, shoulders, stomach, and buttocks. However, even these are quite long and are getting thicker as I get older. I was wondering what I could do about this. The doctor at my university recommended birth control pills and laser hair removal, neither which I am comfortable with at this point (and the latter also being rather expensive for me at ths point). The hair removal methods that I do use are: threading (face), waxing (anywhere else on my body) and shaving occasionally.
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To give you a bit more information on myself:
-I have mainly been following a vegan diet for the past 2 years avoiding alchohol, caffeine and processed food
-I suffered from an eating disorder around age 16 which exacerbated my hirsutism (more vellus hairs), but upon dealing with that problem, my levels are back to normal.
-I unfortunately do not have a regular excercise schedule at all
-my background is South Asian. However, nobody in my immediate family is hirsuite
-I have been hirsuite since I was a child, so it is not something that came with the onset of puberty
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I guess to put simply, I would kind of want to wear a nice dress, maybe learn how to swim, and perhaps even go on a date at least once before I die. "

Note: I got myself checked for PCOS and I am clear for it.

My hirsutism has bothered me greatly in the past, but I am dealing with it better now. I think some of it has to do with an acceptance of it on my part as worrying about it became a bit repetitive and futile. I guess it isnt all that bad, because it has taught me to value the intellect, including my own. I am going to admit that it does get a bit hard. Even though I have accepted the reality of hirutism in my life, I struggle accepting my body. I often feel like I was meant to be a man and went through a phase of some serious gender dysphoria that lasted quite a while. I'm a bit awkward with myself and the way I dress sometimes because I'm very careful with how much skin I show (and dont show). I have had to push several people away in the past for fear of ending up in an intimate relationship with them, or showing signs that I desired such a thing, inspite of how much I may have liked or even loved them. Some of you might be able to expose yourself in these situations, but I have not yet been able to. I really hate how I have to curb my spontaneity as I am quite outgoing and easy-going by nature, but overtime I have become timid and shy. I am trying to get over this and I know that I can (you can too).
As you all know, the list can go on. This is a peculiar problem as those that don't have it dont think much of it, or realize the immense psychological, spiritual and emotional impacts it can have. Sometimes I wonder when I will be able to lead a normal life but sometimes I feel like I am getting there.
I really wish I could be more positive about this as I know I sound a bit despondant. I guess this is just another journey and it is up to me to decide which direction I want to travel. The world is really just too beautiful a place to roam with closed eyes and a cold heart.


I wish you all the best,
Lots of love, hugs and warmth,
A.

A little introduction

Hi everyone!

As a person suffering from hirsutism, I often feel like I don't receive the support, or perhaps the type of support, I need.
Being unable to find that safe and understanding space, I figured I might as well create my own, and one for everyone else to share.
Over time I will add information regarding causes, treatment and anything else I feel is helpful. Feel free to share your personal stories as that is a large part of what this blog intends to do. Unfortunately I have next to zero web design skills and a blog may not be the best instrument for this purpose, but I encourage you to do it anyway!

I wish you all love and strength
Please don't feel like you are alone :)
Sincerely,
A.